The most important music always comes back. This is an effect of the internet- it's true whether or not you perceive it as a good thing. In the modern digital age, older music that never found a true audience during its time has a pattern of being revitalized by the younger generations. The most obvious recent example of this is Duster: a late 90s PNW indie band that fits perfectly into the likes of Built to Spill and Modest Mouse- even sharing a label with the latter- who have only found a real audience much larger than their initial following among Gen Z through the internet. This amazing article about this phenomenon does a better job of explaining Duster’s history than I ever could, and I strongly encourage you to check it out.
A situation similar to this is found with Merchant Ships- a midwest screamo band from South Bend, IL formed in the late 2000s while all members were still in high school. During their brief tenure, they were known among the emo underground (and as a part of what would now be called the first emo revival) for their heartfelt and passionate songs packed with a distinct sense of longing. Merchant Ships broke up twice- the second time being for good. Up until that point, their music only existed on MySpace downloads and on burned CD-Rs. Close to the end of their time, they released their only proper EP, entitled For Cameron. The release was dedicated to the aforementioned Cameron- the principal member of fellow South Bend screamo act Sleep Patterns. Initially self-released only on CD-R by the band, the EP was reissued on tape by the emo revival label Count Your Lucky Stars, placing Merchant Ships among the likes of Empire! Empire! (I Was a Lonely Estate), Snowing, The Reptilian, Penfold, and many, many more. The band came to an end around the time of this reissue, leaving their defining document in the emo world and jumping ship shortly after. Members would later go on to form other incredible bands such as William Bonney, Park Jefferson, and more. But that isn't the point of this story; let's circle back to Cameron. The fourth song on For Cameron is entitled Sleep Patterns; although not the band's usual style at all, it still feels very distinctly emo. The song consists of vocalist Jack M. Senff reciting a poem written by Cameron regarding his dreams and mental health struggles over a largely acoustic (and near-ambient at times) instrumental. In the years since the band's breakup, this song has gained noticeable amounts of traction online. It’s a truly amazing and petrifying song- the words spoken cut so deep that it leaves me in a sense of shock by the end. Having been written by a kid my age going through the same things I am in a similar place to me, it really helps to know that I’m not alone. It’s cliche, but it’s cliche for a reason.
Merchant Ships are truly one of the most important bands in my life. They represent a bygone era that really wasn't that long ago; one of digicams, burned CDs, and a unique sense of midwest depression that can only be truly understood if you were born here (I'm counting Buffalo as a midwest city, shoot me). It was also a time where the biggest bands in emo were largely influenced by the second wave: kids across the country were starting bands inspired by American Football (see: Midwest Pen Pals, another Merchant Ships-related project that existed for a few short months after the first Merchant Ships breakup) and Cap'n Jazz (see: early Algernon Cadwallader and Boy Problems) for the first time since these bands' initial breakups. It was largely a pure, innocent, and youthful time in emo history; one that I hope we can return to in the future. Blurry videos, MySpace, early Tumblr, basement shows, Sophie’s Floorboard, CMHWAK.. all of these were cornerstones of what "real emo" felt like in the late 2000s and early 2010s, right around when the term "skramz" was brought about.
To me, Merchant Ships are a case of the YouTube algorithm gone wrong. When the song Sleep Patterns initially started getting big, Merchant Ships were generally still only known to the small group of people that cared as a screamo band- now, after the song has gone "viral" (well, as viral as a random emo song can be.. which, turns out, is pretty viral), large swathes of people know Merchant Ships as "the Sleep Patterns band". This isn't necessarily a bad thing: the people who made the music we love are being rewarded with the recognition and money- as much money streaming can give, that is- that they have rightfully earned. Despite this, it's still an interesting situation: a band known as one thing for nearly a decade has somewhat suddenly been rebranded and re-appraised by an entirely new group of people.
I’m incredibly grateful to own a copy of one of the most important releases in my life. This tape is extremely expensive. As of writing this, most of the past few sales on Discogs have been for over $150. To whoever the kind soul in Michigan is that sold this to me for not even close to a third of that price, thank you. It means more to me than you will ever know. Hopefully someday it will once again be reissued. Jack Senff was teasing a Merchant Ships-related announcement on Instagram last week, so let’s hope it’s something big. Music this important to this many people deserves to be able to be heard.
As usual, I'm including a download to this EP, along with the rest of Merchant Ships' catalogue, including some rarer demos. Along with this, my favorite video of them playing live (of which the audio download is included in the folder). Enjoy.